"The greatest loss of time is delay and expectation, which depend on the future . . .

. . . We let go the present, which we have in our power, and look forward to that which depends upon chance, and so relinquish a certainty for an uncertainty."

If we weren't willing to face the uncertainties, where would we get ourselves? Nowhere. That doesn't mean uncertainty isn't hard. It is hard. It's scary, defeating, and tiring, but it's life. In order to change and grow, we must take risks; in order to take risks, we must face uncertainties. I just wish that I were better at maintaining my emotional stability while hanging in limbo.

It's freeing to let go of everything that you know for certain, that you've grown comfortable with, that you have accepted as normal. It's exciting to hope, to dream, to wish for the future.

It's just scary being vulnerable, but sometimes I think it would be easier if I just wore my heart on my sleeve.


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One and a half weeks left of my educational career. I will be a free woman, with a Masters degree in hand. I am so incredibly excited to be done with school. It's time I learned to live in the real world.


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Things are good. I'm happy. But that doesn't mean I can't be scared.